Oh Work

Say goodbye to my summer...

One of our girls at work went out on leave earlier than expected, but was going to be gone all summer since she's due in June.  I hadn't realized that it would have such a vast impact on my summer plans, especially since it's the first summer with Baby J, until I got my schedule through June.  Now instead of the 15-20 hours a week I've been working I'll be doing 35-40.

Praying praying praying that the Lord works something out because I need to be at summer camp with my kids, need to be home with my baby, and need to have some glimpse through the clouds that my dreams are preparing to come true.

I know that His ways are higher than mine, as are His thoughts,  but with the rain coming down outside all I'm seeing is the gray...

SO Much To Do

I am so beyond happy that I don't have to go back to my "real" job until Thursday!  Being a ministry momma is hard work as it is, but to juggle that with working outside the home is getting to be a lot.  I know that the Lord has more for me than this!  I know that He wants to be my ultimate provider and take care of my every need.  I know that He wants me to be free to live the desires of my heart, but stepping out in that is such a struggle for me.  I have a a hard time finding the balance between faith and wisdom.  I would love to step out in "faith" and believe He's going to take care of my every need.  Wisdom on the other hand seems to say that a guaranteed income and insurance that covers not only the hubby and I, but also my precious little who has definitely had use for it, is hard to walk away from.  Lord, I need clarity and direction!  I want provision for my family that far exceeds my wildest dreams.  I want to be free to do ministry EXACTLY as I dream to do it!  I want the ability to take care of my home and my little in the way only a momma can!  Open the doors and pour out blessing upon blessing!